When Life gives you lemons, but you're allergic to lemons so life is kind of a jerk.

Warning, post may contain profanity. Meaning it does. Sorry, Memaw.

I figure there are 2 ways to live life, 

happily, or anything other than happily. 

No one wants to live the second way. Its just not as fun. I have been doing a lot of soul searching the last few days. It may be the pills the doctor prescribed, the fact that I have actually been sleeping more than 4 hours a night or the fact that I had a revelation that I am just done with ever feeling anything less than adequate. 

My cat is a perfect example of how you should live life. She knows she is not supposed to be on the table but she just hopped up there.

"Get down, cat"

she looks at me...because she's a cat and doesn't understand english. I tell her NOT to jump on me from the table (I know thats her end game but theres no room since my computer is in my lap)

She jumps.

She hits my computer then falls to the ground. She then jumps on the table again, because she's determined, totally unfazed by her last face plant and gets back into her jumping stance. The cycle continues.

That cat is everything I want to be in life. Determined, goal oriented, and she give no fucks about my opinion of her or her actions. She is a happy cat. 

We are all dealt cards by life. Sometimes our hand is great and all our money is on the table and we're winning. You are the gambler. You know when to hold them, fold them, walk away, and when to cash in for the largest bottle of vodka. Those are good times. The times you're in control and everything feels like its going just right. But things can't be like that forever. Its just not statistically plausible. Shit is going to happen. The car will break down, work will suck, you'll find out your husband is sleeping with your sister who isn't as pretty as you, youre going to blink and get mascara on your eyebrow. It happens...and it all sucks. But here is where things get interesting. The way your life goes is completely related to how you react to a situation. You can lose your cool, grab a bottle of wine and find a corner to cry in, or you can dust off your skirt and say "is that all you've got?". 

You're going to get mad, get hurt, hit rock bottom but you don't have to stay there. It is completely up to you to get back up and keep going. THAT is how you live happily. Not by things being perfect, but by reacting perfectly to imperfect situations. 

When you step back and look at problems think about how big they are in the scheme of things it can really help put things into perspective. Things could always be worse. That doesn't mean its not okay to feel down, but that does mean its not okay to stay down. Your life is a lemon. You are so lucky for all the things you have and if you really take a good grasp of it you can squeeze that into the perfect pitcher of lemonade...or lemon drop martini... Just remember when things seem tough and that lemon is really hard to squeeze or not quite ripe that things will get better. Just keep your chin up. You are in control of your situation and never let life make you feel like you're not. You go girl.

With love, 

Kayla.