Really, we're all dying.

I'm dying. Not one of those tragic, the end is near and I have months to live dying - but none the less every single day I am closer to my last. So are you. Had I known that I would be left a partial orphan before I turned 20 I would have had such a different relationship with my Mother. She was so young. So unexpected. But, it has taught me so much about being a Mother myself. I learned in the hardest way how important it is to live for today. I learned how invaluable memories are. I wish I had more. I've spent the last year re-dedicating myself to being more present with my children. I take a million photos, drag them out to do things every chance I get. I still very much believe in finding myself, but with that I have also put emphasis on that part of my life. I put my computer and phone down more. Everything else can wait. I think more in the short term than I used to and my God it is so glorious to do that. I live like I'm dying, like these memories only have now to be made, because let's face it, you really never know. I've made it a point to love more, kiss more, understand more. I've made a point to live while I can.